“I mostly felt changes before I saw any. Feeling happier, more at ease, less anxious,” explains Schwartz. “And the ‘downsides’ are so insignificant compared to feeling comfortable in your body and how you present to the world.”
As famous in different guides to testosterone, some concern the way in which T would possibly change their feelings, probably changing into angrier, a concern which has been fueled by stereotypes of steroids. Goldstein says that she recommends all her sufferers work with a therapist whereas beginning hormones to assist navigate their feelings throughout such a giant time of change. She says that the feelings that come up are, “ever due just to testosterone, but coping with transphobia during the coming-out process is hard, and everyone acts differently. Handling this while testosterone is making some changes about how you feel things can be really challenging, and it’s good to have a regular ear to help work things out as they arise.”
Though T does form your feelings, you might be nonetheless you. “Some people talk about becoming a wholly different person in transition… but it’s never just testosterone. Testosterone is only one piece of the puzzle and often gets blamed for things that people do during transition that are just a regular part of becoming the person we want to be,” explains Goldstein.
Increased physique hair is par for the course with testosterone. Goldstein explains, “There’s no way to control where the hair grows when taking testosterone.” Even with a smaller dose, it begins to sprout in locations you may not in any other case have it, like in your face, thighs, chest, and arms. Texturally, the hair would possibly change into coarse as properly. UCSF’s Transgender Care web site suggests taking a look at males in your loved ones for a way of how your hair would possibly develop with testosterone.
The hair follicles that change into activated do not go away, and even off T, you’ll nonetheless develop hair in these locations. If you are fearing hair development on T, know that hair removing choices like waxing, shaving, or laser/electrolysis hair removing are doable. On the flip aspect, these adjustments may also be gender euphoric. “I had a noticeable amount of facial hair about six months in. Everything felt good,” Schwartz defined.
People on T usually expertise some deepening of their voice, albeit at completely different levels and depending on dosing. As many sources acknowledge, voice adjustments are irreversible. Personally, I’ve felt the change come from inside, although with out a lot noticeable distinction at current. There are practically infinite movies on-line throughout TikTok, YouTube, and different social media. (Personally, I’ve been following TikTok consumer @shovelbug, since we began T across the identical time and it’s been attention-grabbing to examine my progress to theirs.)
When it comes to intercourse and intercourse drive, T has the flexibility to change how you are feeling and the place you are feeling it, however stereotypes about how attractive you will get and the way your sexuality would possibly develop are largely depending on you. Some adjustments in libido are to be anticipated. As UCSF’s overview of masculinizing hormone remedy states, “you may find that different sex acts or different parts of your body bring you erotic pleasure. Some people find that their sexual interests, attractions, or orientation may change when taking testosterone. It is best to explore these new feelings rather than keep them bottled up.” It’s true that some trans males expertise adjustments in sexual choice, however analysis suggests, “confusion before and after transitioning, social and self-acceptance, as well as concept of sexual orientation” might clarify adjustments in choice throughout hormone remedy.
Changes to Genitalia, or “Bottom Growth”
Testosterone promotes bodily adjustments to your genitalia, specifically clitoral enlargement, colloquially referred to as “bottom growth.” Bottom development will not reverse after stopping T and is commonly cited as a concern for these beginning out however is definitely one of many first marked adjustments that folk observe. “I was really scared about bottom growth,” Schwartz explains, however he says that in hindsight, his fears had been “silly and largely products of my internalized transphobia.”